Belated post

Ok, yeah I'm not staying on top of things and writting often. Its crazy with school, work and everything. We have started putting the nursery together, have the crib set up, moved my office out and well starting to figure out what to do. But well can't do much of it till we know what we are having. And well June 1, 2007 baby permitting we will find out what we are having. I'm not saying I want a boy or girl, I want a baby, a healthy one. No matter if its a boy a girl I will have to adjust. So i'm excited to know, then we can start picking out the names and working on that as well.

More to come post ultrasound.....

~tfkr

Daddy, Daddy, Daddy

Random thought just hit me..... In less than 5 months I'll get to met our bundle of joy........

And then begins the 18 plus year of watching my child grow, molding them, and answering the questions.....

Daddy, Daddy, daddy..... why does? what is? where? how?

I don't know how I'm going to be able to be the wise one...... I often right now feel that I'm not wise, that I don't know much, and that I am struggling to know what I need to know now......

God is faithful, He will teach me and provide me with the wisdom and the people around me to help me....

~tfkr

Patience...... Its a key

So one thing that I am learning is patience.I am a do do do, go go go person, and Jen has been over the years making me learn to be patient. Right now we are waiting to do any prep work on the nursery till we know if its a boy or girl. The news will determine the paint color and other aspects of the room, so we can't really move on that till we know.

Being the dad is hard as all you see is the changes that your wife goes through and an external developments such as morning sickness and the normally pregnancy changes. So its hard. I'm looking forward to the days when the baby is more active and I can "interact" with the baby more. I know Jen's not looking forward to that though.......

It's hard for me to be patient as I am also nervous about being a dad. Will my kid like me? Will I know how to be a good dad? Do the right things? Say the right things? Make the right decisions? There is so much that goes through one's head. Since we still have till October I know I'll have alot of time to consider and worry. I need to just remeber one thing..... PATIENCE..... Just as it takes time to get a good photograph of a butterfly, too patience is a good thing in all of life, especially fatherhood.

~tfkr

A whole new view....

Well changes have already begun around our household. The office has been moved. Paint colors are being looked at. And well of course my nerves are starting. Going from being just a husband to now a husband and father is such a large change. There is another person to care for. Another person that is greatly affected by what things I do or don't do, when I get home, when I go see friends, and what job I have.

i don't think anything really prepares you for the change to life that a child is. No one tells you the mix of excitement, fear, concern, joy, and happiness that can be experienced. No one tells you about the morning sickness and how it really is. I think i'm coping well so far, but we'll see what the next months bring. We have had an ultrasound as you can see. We aren't as far along as we thought, but Jenn thinks the baby will be here sooner than the doctor expects.

I'm excited and nervous. No matter if we have a son or daughter I don't really care, but either way I will have to adjust to it. Having a son means I will have to be more interested in sports and well try to understand them so i can pass them on. If its a daughter I will also have to adjust as I never had a sister growing up, have to protect her from all the bad guys that will be out there, and well find a way to connect to a female that is alot younger than me. Either way i'm excited, and I know that I have a lot of learining to do........ But I have time to adjuster right? Time to learn? Time to get the projects done?..... I know that some things will happen and some things won't get done over the next months.... I'm just excited. For now I guess I'm just on for the ride as I'm not the one carrying our bundle of joy........ My true fun begins the moment our child mets the world face to face!

~New Daddy......

Fatherhood's Implication on Spiritual Life

So I was sitting in church this past sunday and was struck by how my view of Christianity and my understanding of it is in the process of changing. I am going to be able to relate in a new way of what it means to be a child, and what it means that God is my father, and How God does not hurt His children and always provides for them.

I'm not exactly sure how I'm going to change or broaden my understanding. But I look forward to this.

Having to learn to provide and care for someone that is somewhat helpless and dependent on my love, care, and support is going to be a change as well. Being married is one thing, but now having to help care for a little one puts so much more pressure on every decision about work, money, and free time.

I just pray that as things change, that I will adapt and be the best dad my child could ask for!

~tfkr

The First week

Ok, so we found out on Sunday that we might be preganant, and well Monday, positive #2 came along. We are so excited. We were trying but we weren't. We want to have kids but weren't paying close attention to cycles or anything. I guess you can say we truly left it in God's hands. So we are excited. From our estimates our young one will be here around September 24. Just in time for our 4th wedding anniversary. We'll find out in the next month to two a more clear idea of the due date. Our newphew will be 2 years old around the time that his first cousin arrives. I'm excited. My dear wife wasn't sure at first but I am. As a father to be I am so exctied but also have fears.

Last night was our Preganancy Education meeting at her Doctors office. Quite informational and helpful. Nothing supper surprising, but good to know stuff.

I'm excited to start working on the nursery. I can't wait to build furniture and items that we'll need. I love working on projects with my other half, sometimes its stressful, but it is fun. Her parents will probably join in on the fun Easter weekend. For Her parents it is the first grandchild and first great grandchild. For my side it will be the 2nd grandchild. Its hard having her parents so far away (6 hours). It will be nice thought to have my brother and sister-in-law in town and my parenst an hour a way.

Oh well I'm off, i'll write more as things develop and move along...

~tfkr